Hey tom. I hate the way our lives move on and you're not here with us. I know you are in our hearts but we miss your presence. Have had contact from Gemma this week. I often wonder what would have been. What you would be doing, where would you be working, all sorts of questions which will remain unanswered for ever. There are a lot of if onlys Tom which go through my mind every day. Everything has changed. Nothing is right anymore. I think of you so often. Tears flow even when I don't think I have any left. Oh Tom there is so much I could write but I will write another day. Til next time. Xx